Rediscovering Me to Land a New Job

So a few weeks ago I was struggling with juggling nursing and being a mum. Life was tough and I could see no way of making it better. Then followed an even heartier kick in the teeth when I failed to gain the substantive post for the job I have been doing for 2 years. Yep I have to say I was pretty damn low. In fact so low I was seriously contemplating leaving nursing forever and becoming a postman. (I love post, I just think it’s so exciting get stuff through the door…)

Then came a moment in my life where someone actually stood up and basically said don’t be a dickhead. She was right, I either threw my toys out the pram or I picked myself up and dusted myself off. Stopped bemoaning the unfairness of the situation and actually proved I was more than what I was threatening to become.

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It was hard. Almost crippled by self-doubt and the fear of failing a second time. But then I thought about what I have already overcome. The challenges I have faced head on – not least this last year with PND after Pudding. The time had come to stand up, to fight for what I believed and to put myself out there.

So I did. In went the application for a job I never would have applied for a year ago. Every time it crossed my mind over Christmas my stomach did that awful flip-flop. I let myself have moments of day dreaming that I had the job. Every time I did my confidence grew just a bit more. But not just that so did my passion for my nursing career. I felt re-energised for the first time since the children. I felt like me. Not just Mummy but a woman who could achieve her dreams of a career and family.

I planned how I could work and have the kids cared for. I read, anything and everything that might be useful. The interview was confirmed and I redoubled my efforts. Now I wanted this, really wanted it. No longer a pipe dream, I believed I could make this happen.

The interview date came. Sat waiting to be called my hand shook a little, my stomach seemed to twist and dance entirely to its own tune. If I thought the pre-interview wait was bad the post interview wait was a whole new form of torture. My mind analysed it over and over and over until I could barely remember what had even happened! Then finally the moment was there – as the words came out of my managers mouth I couldn’t really understand what she was saying. Let alone believe it! I had done it, the job was mine. Holy Shit!!!!!

So in the next few weeks I will start my new post. Full of enthusiasm and the passion to make positive changes. Will it all be plain sailing? Ha unlikely! I am on the steepest learning curve of my career. It’s going to be tough, a whole new challenge. Not just for me but for all of us as we try to juggle a new working pattern. Will it be worth it? I believe it will, but watch this space…

 

18 thoughts on “Rediscovering Me to Land a New Job

  1. Wow good on you! Congratulations on the new job! I hope it’s a fantastic opportunity for you and your family. My husband is starting a new job on Monday and I’m so proud of him for getting it as he has no qualifications and has worked his way up to where he is today. I have always believed in him . I love hearing fantastic news like this! Good luck in your new job! Xx
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  2. Wow, well done for persevering and congrats on the new job! Hope you settle in quickly and really enjoy the new challenges it brings 🙂 #eatsleepblogrt

  3. WOw! Kudos and Mazel Tov Zoe! You are off on a new journey, amidst the journey you are in! Shpilkas happens, but you will soar! Can’t wait to read more. #EatSleepBlogRT

  4. Well done for such an achievement!! It is so hard to pull oneself out of that self doubt hole but it needs to come from you and only you doesn’t it? Good luck with the new job, am sure you will ace it! xxx #eatsleepblogRT

  5. Many congratulations! I’m a big believer that everything happens for a reason. You might not have got one job, but it’s because something better was waiting around the corner for you! I’m so glad you found the confidence to go for it, and I’m sure it is going to be amazing for you. #EatSleepBlogRT
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  6. Yay! What an uplifting post. Well done on the new job. I totally get this. I’ve just resigned to set up my own business – which I would never have had the gumption to do before baby x

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